Ah, what a crazy day it’s been today…I just realised it is “Friday the 13th” big deal. Honestly! Just another day, that for me, turned out to be pretty amazing.
I don’t really know where to start, to be honest. Last night I was on the phone with Cory until fairly early into the morning. We both have a hard time saying bye to each other…me because I hate saying bye to him…and him? Because he hates seeing me sad? I don’t know, but what he did was definitely sweet. He showed up on my doorstep with coffee. Now, there are 190 kilometres between Montreal and Ottawa – he spent two hours on the bus to come see me. He got up an hour after we hung up the phone and took the bus to see me. I think it was a nice gesture for two reasons:
a) It’s been a while since we last saw each other…(the last time was in the Toronto Airport)
b) He’d been saving the $50 he spend on the bus ticket to fill up his mobile, which didn’t happen and I feel guilty?
I told him I don’t want to get in the way of his priorities…and he said it was his priority to make me smile. Ah!
So guess what I did, oh, let’s say an hour after he arrived? I left because E had to go to lectures What the heck is wrong with me?! Why didn’t I just skip…one day, two lectures…He told me to get on with what I had to do, so I left this morning at 8:00 and I got home at lunchtime to find him sleeping in my bed. Keeping in mind that I’ve never been in a relationship, much less been with a man…I put my things down and crawled into my bed with him. Seven hours later I woke up to pee (sorry, not very romantic – but hey, life isn’t all roses!) and I apparently woke him up. But I have my doubts about that! He said he was watching me sleep why would he want to do that?
I’ve never felt so safe before. I don’t know how exactly to explain it – just I’ve never felt so safe from harm before.
I do feel bad though because he left tonight as well.. I only got to spend approximately 9 hours with him? and most of it was spent sleeping because I fell asleep as soon as I got into bed.
Funny, he didn’t once try anything – he just held me and I don’t think he realises, but that was more intimate than anything I could imagine.
The last little while we had together we went to see a film called, “Last Holiday” with Dana Owens aka Queen Latifah. The arm rests in the cinema move, so we lifted it up to create one “big” seat and I put my feet up and just leaned on him. It was just really comfortable.
I’m not even that comfortable around my family!
Now he’s gone back to Ottawa and I miss him.
xox
Epicurean
February 27th, 2006 at 12:59 pm
You know, I almost blushed reading that!! LOL
awwwwwwwww he just held you…
I know I’m gonna get the mikey taken out of me for saying this because I’m a bloke but that’s just so sweet and I personally can’t think of anything more romantic. (especially when it’s new!)
Sounds like things are going really well for you two and he sounds like a really nice guy…I hope that you’re relationship with each other goes from strength to strength!!