Over the festive period I took two weeks off from work to take a break from the daily grind of fixing networks and try my absolute best to explain to the middle managers why our network is so flaky! On that last day I just couldn’t wait to get out of there! Now I’m back at work and I think to myself…where the hell did those two weeks go? Those two weeks felt just like and ordinary weekend. Buy why? I was at home, relaxing, spending time with the family watching t.v. and yet somehow I just didn’t feel refreshed. I felt as if every day was the same and that I didn’t get anything done. My life is like that of Bill Murray in the film “Groundhog Day” and each day to me was the same and that is why I could barely remember what day it was!!
Nicky came to visit me on Monday, awkward would be putting it mildly! Neither one of us had anything constructive to say to each other. I cooked lunch and she sat at my computer talking to her boyfriend on MSN messenger. When we both sat down all she did was hassle me about why I don’t have a boyfriend. I just felt like yelling back at her, “BECAUSE I’M NOT A SLAG WHO’LL JUMP ANY MALE THAT LOOKS AT ME!” But of course I didn’t, I sat there at the kitchen table, smiled and proceeded to tell her that no one has asked me out so I’ve not said yes. I regretted saying that for two reasons, I don’t like lying – although it would appear that I’m good at it – and I’m just not interested right now. I have a hard enough time trying to balance life outside university and uni itself. Then she asked me if I was a lesbian, not that there’s anything wrong with being interested in women, but I just wanted to smack her. My sexual orientation is my business, not hers!
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Amit Sodha | 
Confidence, Creative, Growth and Self Development, Positive Thoughts | 
01 3rd, 2006| 
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Those few seconds of happiness are amazing. That moment when you kiss and hug your loved ones. Yes 2006 is here For a few short minutes there is happiness of newness and the prospect of new options and choices in our lives. Newness often brings the best out of people. It brings that hope that things can change and things can be different. We start the process of making resolutions and within a few short days the resolutions are forgotten and once again everything seems normal. That hope is gone and nothing seems as rose tinted as it did for those few short moments We do this to ourselves every year. We build up our expectations of what say to ourselves; ” this year is going to be different. I’m going to effect change this year.” Unless we act upon those fresh feelings its begs the question why do we do it to ourselves? Why do we build up our own expectations of greatness and newness and then let those ambitions and dreams slip so quickly.
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