Amit Sodha | 
03 31st, 2006| 
(Part 2) From the moment of our birth, we begin our process of thoughts, actions, imagination, exploration, obviously not as consciously as in later life but, it all begins there. (Some may argue that this process begins even sooner but just for arguments sake, lets say, it begins at birth)
In our early developmental stages we are exposed to the words, thoughts, and deeds of others which have a lasting effect on our lives. However, just because this influential process began at a young age it doesn’t mean that the effects of that cannot be changed at a later stage. I often hear people make the statement ” I am what I am and there’s nothing I can do about it” (speaking in the context of something about themselves that they do not like). If you continue to think that way, then yes, you will inevitably be stuck in a rut because you’re not allowing yourself any room to become a “better you”.
I assure you that this is not the case. If there is something about yourself that you do wish to change you firstly need to take a close look at the thing that you want to change. Once of the biggest things for me was losing weight. There were actually times when I believed that there was nothing I could do about my weight and that I was destined to be fat forever! It was only when I realised that I was choosing to be fat and that I could change that choice if I so desired. I firstly took at look at my reasoning and realised then that my weight was no longer my priority, my health was. I was starting to become incredibly ill and I knew that if I failed to act, I would be in an early grave. Either way, it was still a choice. I could either choose to act or choose not to. In this particular case, I chose to act and do something about it.
Later today I’ll be attending a community project that I signed up for to give some young year 10 students mock interviews to prepare them for their work experience placements. I love being around young people as I find it kind of brings out that side of me too but I know that it will be fun for them and enjoyable.
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I submitted my entry for the JPMorgan Chase Challenge run today. It’s 3.5 mile run in Battersea Park, London. 
Spoken words of envy and breathing in words of hate
From time to time I will be posting up some of the thoughts and images that have either occured to me during meditation or thoughts and methods that you can use during meditation.
One thing that I find most difficult in life is maintaining the enthusiasm for a task which I’ve undertaken. I tend to lose the momentum after only a few days and I find my motivation and drive starts to lag. 
It really annoys me that when Cory dumped me, I had to go and tell my Mum. Not only was she smug about it – she decided to go into detail about my life plan she has for me. Honestly, I don’t care. You’ve given me cancer, my newspaper column is gone as is my editorial position, and I’ve lost my best friend.
When once this heart lived in a darkened place
Yep, that’s right, for the 2nd time in just the space of three weeks I’ve been struck down by a cold/flu type virus. I had this problem when I was younger whereby I would get a cold or some type of virus almost every week. For a while I managed to overcome this but recently I’ve been finding that’s it’s happening to me more regularly.
Often on a Friday night my friends and I meet up for a game of poker! Usually when I tell people this they instantly make their minds up that I must have some sort of gambling problem! 
There will be days when you feel like you’re lacking in inspiration or creativity. Usually the reason is that there is much going on in your mind which is causing the barriers and the blockage. The way to get around this is to STOP! Do nothing! Literally stop everything that you’re doing…slow your thoughts and allow yourself to open up and listen to your soul, your deepest feeling, what your heart is telling you. Make the most of that quiet moment. These days, opportunities for quiet moments tend to be few and far between so make it a moment that counts. (Image linked from www.sudden-thoughts.com)
I think I might be pregnant but I don’t know for sure and won’t find out until next month. How do I pass the time between now and then?
Well tomorrow is my Birthday and up until a couple of weeks ago I was contemplating on what to do for it. I was thinking about going out for a meal with friends, or going bowling, or doing something of the like. But then, a strange thought occured to me which resulted from recent emails that I had been getting.
Why is it so hard to make a choice? It seems as simple as making an affirmation and then putting it into action. What could be easier…well the hardest part to making a choice is maintaining that choice. What suits you one day may not suit you for another, and in certain circumstances this will reflect well on your life. However take for example diets: you decide to go on a diet, and make the choice of eating certain foods each day…however sometimes the temptation will become overwhelming, and you may make another choice to eat a cake, and exercise it off the next day. Choices can be as regimented as you require them to be, the more power you give to your choice, the more empowered you will ultimately feel. 
