Thanks for you lovely message. I’m guessing that when you say you can relate you’ve been through or know of someone who went through something similar? Can you share?

Have a great day.

I loved your story and thoughts. I can connect and relate. I wish you all the best and send much love!

Have a wonderful day!

Thank you for your heartfelt comments and words. It was a very long time ago for me and not something I would ever contemplate now or in the future. However I’m extremely glad it’s something that I went through as it was all part of my personal growth.

Thanks again.

I tried to commit suicide in Nov. 2003, and have grown from that experience.

I am hoping that you or by contacting someone, where ever you are now, will look into my book and buy a copy or copies in order to bring some stabiltiy back to you.
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My new book of personal poems were written over a 5 year period, and deals with my own emotional experience with my attempted suicide in November 2003, and I hope it will have an impact on others – to chosoe life over death. PublishAmerica, LLLP.

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I had originally planned on writing a journal to document my thoughts after my suicide attempt, but instead I chose to put my thoughts and ideas in the form of poetry. I had never had the reason in the past to even consider writing poems, but somehow I was able to take all of my most inner feelings and transpose them onto paper in the form of a poem, and in doing so, I was able to express what was going on inside my head and put all of my emotional pain and struggles down on paper.

I just hope that in some way or another; that by sharing my poems with other people; that they will also have an impact on other men, women and teenagers of any race, gay orstraight…. that have gone or are now going through the thoughts of contemplating suicide, and that you will be able to absorb some of the meaning in my poems and take away a new outlook on life; in knowing that there are other people in the world who are going through the same emotional anguish.

My book, My Suicidal Heart, also has several pages of “Resource and Helplines”, for people who are dealing with depression and/or suicidal tendencies. There are multiple organizations, websites, contact addresses and phone numbers for people of all ages, races, gay or straight; both national and international. For not only people who are depressed and/or contemplating suicide, but for people who either know someone who is showing the sign(s) of depression and/or suicidal thoughts; to people who have lost someone to suicide, so they too can get the bereavement help and support they need.

Synopsis:
Suicidal thinking and behavior are prevalent among all classes of society. Many cultures are impacted by the tendencies to end one’s life, despite their spiritual beliefs. The pressures of growing up are becoming more relevant in our fragmented lives. Childhood and adulthood are a war for some, and the toxic bed of pain becomes too much to handle. They blame themselves when all the burdens settle on them.

We can’t act obliviously to this rising epidemic of suicide. We need to recognize the warning signs to save someone who is emotionally stressed without any hopes of love, happiness, living life to the fullest and experiencing what God has given us, before this becomes a vicious circle. Writing these poems gave me the inspiration and insight to enjoy this one life, and to help others by sharing them, so hopefully you can get the help you want and need.

Sincerely,Michael G. Howard (Howie)
Dallas, TX.

Author/Poet; My Suicidal Heart

www[dot]mysuicidalheart[dot]vpweb[dot]com

You are a a true gentleman and thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and wisdom too! I hope you truly have a wonderful xmas and new year!

God bless!

I just read your life-changing story and was moved considerably by the details, mainly because I know of many individuals who have been through this same experience, some are here to tell their tale and others sadly are not. I do believe that everyone always has a choice “all of the time” and that we as individuals are creators of our life experience. I truly believe that everyone (without exception) can change their lives for the better through constant analysis of their thoughts and feelings. At the end of the day “You are what you think!”

Thank you again for sharing your thoughts on such a difficult subject. It goes without saying that you have gained a lot from what you have been through but to put a positive spin on things, you would not be the person you are had you not been through the bad times. Let it be a lesson for all that Life is always full of abundance for everyone.

Many thanks for the constant inspiration that you provide to the world and all the tremendous good work that you continue to do.
God Bless You!

Thanks for sharing and thanks for always being a part of this blog!

Quite a profound story. I, too, went through a period when I wanted to end it all.

I was still in high school, had no friends, was taunted by just about everyone.

I didn’t feel as if I were worth breathing the air or eating the food or drinking the water because it would have been better used by someone else.

Two things in your story ring very true for me, also.

First, I also spent a lot of time deciding on the best way to kill myself. It seemed quite important at the time that it be done just right! Second, I just woke up one day and knew, without knowing why or how, that life would get better. I knew I could get through this and be happy some day.

I applaude your courage in getting through a difficult time in your life, and for writing about it so that others may take heart and see a light at the end of the tunnel.